It has been years

Aha! My last post was in 2014 and now it's already the end of 2017. It has been three freaking plus years that I left the space. So so many things that have happened in my life. And I am here again just because I feel like writing again. InshaAllah hopefully this is the real comeback. Although blogging may not be relevant anymore now but I think I'd rather have the memories kept and sealed here. Plus, I just had the sudden urge of writing. 

To summarise,

2014- We (READ:I) have decided to leave UAE and come back to Malaysia just because I am homesick. I have presented to my husband a few reasons why it is good for us to settle down in Malaysia namely our parents who are definitely not getting any younger, our empty house and not to forget i just miss the Malaysian food! lol. Thank God husband agreed and he started looking for the opportunities since then. Alhamdulillah, he managed to grab a spot at Saipem Malaysia. It took us few weeks to sell off some of our belongings i.e electrical appliances and some other stuff that we bought there. It wasn't easy since renting a fully-furnished house there means that we "officially" bough the furniture and equipment too. Thus, when we wanted to leave, we had to find people who wanted to buy the stuff that came with the house too incl the Fridge, washing machine, wardrobe, dining table, the beds and all. We were desperate and our only aim was to make sure all the stuff must go so we sold them out with a very low price I must say. Pffft

2015- We started our "new" life in our homeland Malaysia. As for the house, since it was left for quite some times, of course, thorough cleaning had to be done. And we also needed to fix some things, buy a lot of things to finally call it a "homey" home, at least to us. 2015 also marked the beginning of my third pregnancy. Alhamdulillah, the first trimester began so well; no signs of morning sickness except for some spotting on Week 7 which alhamdulillah turned okay. At first, I thought I was pregnant with a boy since the pregnancy was totally different during Nuha's. Boy, I was wrong that it is another girl. Yay. Deep inside I was happy since I love love love shopping for girls' outfits. Good luck to my husband to live with THREE girls. hehehe. I was due to deliver in March 2016. My antenatal check ups were of course with my favourite gynae, Dr Marsita Mansor. 

2016- One of the most unforgettable years I have had so far. Alhamdulillah, on the 12th of March 2016, at 40 weeks, I have safely delivered a whopping 3.7kg baby girl named Nayla Khayra via normal delivery but of course assisted by vacuum because according to my gynae the baby was not in correct position although I have been trying my level best to push her out. and due to that, can u just imagine the stitches i had down there. uwaaaa. It took my gynae one freaking hour to finally done stitching. And to make it even worse, I had hemorrhoid too! The nightmare began once I got home and it took me one month plus to finally able to achieve full recovery. Only Allah knows how bad it was; I could not be able to breastfeed properly, because it was so hard to even sit! sakitnye Allah saje yg tahu. I tried all sorts of things to expedite the recovery. Bought the EMAB bottom cream la, beli ubat from the kedai cina la, guna manjakani la, and the list goes. Sigh. After I am done with the delivery, we were so busy with our new house in Cyberjaya. Went surveying and looking for stuff for our rumahku syurgaku. With the help of our contractor, Yanie who has been very helpful from the beginning, everything was sorted.Alhamdulillah.

2016 also has seen me being at my lowest state where we sent back our little baby Nayla Khayra to Her Creator. She left us peacefully on 4th of August 2016 at PICU,Hospital Kuala Lumpur. I will blog more on her in next entry InshaAllah. The feelings were surreal even until today. My days have never gone without thinking and missing her. I know she is at a so much better place now, but deep down, as a mother, what would you feel losing your own flesh and blood whom you had carried for 40 weeks. The one that could hear your heartbeat. Ahh I am crying hard while typing this out. 

I'd better stop now.....till then.

Eid 2014

Happy Eid Mubarak all! Let's forgive n forget. We went back to our hometown for raya and it was Reallly great spending raya with our loved ones back home. Syukur for that n now we r back in Sharjah. Sob...sob I wish the holiday is longer heeee. But never mind life must go on. As for Nuha, it's her first raya and I must say that I was the one who was so excited prepping for her. Haha. obviously more budget was spent on her clothes, shoes, headbands and etc etc. In fact she even got new sleep suits for raya. God bless u lil girl. 

On another note, she turned 8mo on the first day of Raya but poor baby she was extremely tired and definitely sleep deprived and was caught by jetlag bug. She only slept for almost 2 hours in total during the journey hence the crankiness throughout the day. Though she has tried her best to "entertain" the crowd which consists of her beloved grandparents together with her uncles n aunties. Good job darling! we spent the first day of raya at abang's place in Cheras before making a move to visit paklang's place at Bukit Sentosa,Rawang. Ate a lot there. Nasi dagang lomang lontong kuah kacang n the list goes. Hehe. later we headed back to in laws place at Sabak Bernam where we continued raya session and that was inclusive of nonstop eating raya food n nonraya food cooked with love by Mak n Abah. Thank you! Ok next up will b raya in kelate pulak . My girl is calling gtg

MH 17

It was a heartbreaking news that somehow I wished it was not true. Deepest condolences goes to all 295 passengers and crews on board MH 17. The plane was believed to be shot down and went down in Eastern Ukraine. My husband and I were in the midst of our Iftar when my cousin in Malaysia whatsapped the news about the incident.   I was telling my husband that this could b some kind of joke as obviously we are still not over MH370 incident. I repeatedly asking my cousin whether the news was a real one or maybe someone was faking the news but Allah knows best. It was a red one. As usual I had goosebumps all over and just could not concentrate eveb during my Maghrib prayer my mind was wandering thinking about the tragic incident. I pray to Allah that those innocent lives who were killed in the incident will be granted the highest of Jannah (for Muslims) and rested in peace for the rest. 

7mo old baby!

Like, seriously mommy? Alhamdulillah Nuha Zareera turned 7mo old on Saturday 28/6. Ohh time does fly. So quick that I wish I could press the pause button. 😂

This little girl really keeps me busy during the daytime. Thankfully I have my time off at nights when her daddy is around. She loves all the attention given to her esp when both mommy n daddy are seated around her. We could see the excitement in her eyes! Now that she has grown cleverer, and she knows that mommy or daddy will put and end to any of her requests listening to her cries, man, she is utilizing her skills well I would say. She refuses the stroller. not completely but she could not take it for a long period of time. She would attempt to sit down on the maxi cosi and not lying on her back to show signal that she wants to b carried. 

Mealtimes outside is quite challenging now that she would try to grab anything that is near n reachable. ie plates, the cutleries n OUR food! Bahaha. 

She enjoys her mommy plays "joker" over daddy. kalo daddy does the same thingwith mommy sometimes it could leaf to her crying pulak. Yeah. Mommy power.   Hehehe

Looks more n more like daddy. I've been getting this a lot. It's ok sojuk katenye if girl looks like the daddy,no? 

Attempt to crawl still x bjaye at this point of time. But she has started lifting her body a lot but I guess she still needs time to figure out how to coordinate the movements of hands n legs n the body lifting. No worries abt that. 

She has also cut her first tooth! Yayers! Now da nmpk ade 2 teeth at bottom front side. No wonder she's been putting everything in her mouth. Ouch must b so painful kan. 

 

Another thing I notice is this girl is really fond of labels and tags attached to the bedspread, napkins, pillowcases and etc. ESP for stuff bought from ikea, kan her labels very the besar sgt. Ha she loves to play with that and of course, followed by action of puting them in her mouth la. 

And also she is one bubbly and friendly baby. So far alhamdulillah no signs of stranger anxiety spotted. I'm thankful for that. Hee. A few times when we were out for dinner, the waitresses offered to hold her while we ate n boy, she didn't mind it at all. 👏👏👏 tesengih2 jeee org ambik die. 

Ok lai think that's all for now. Will surely continue later insyaAllah. Before I end, I'd like to wish everyone Happy Fasting May this holy month bring us closer to Allah. And let's fork out as much pahala as we can. InsyaAllah Amin. My major aims remain this year which to not miss terawikh and to khatam again. and of course with other additional ones. Trying my v best. InsyaAllah 

Till then. 

My little boss

Muka mentel kemaen ye. Ever since her recovery from demam, she's been so manja n clingy that she wants to b carried and held all the time! Oh nooo. That left mommy n daddy with so little time to do other things including vacuuming the house n mopping the floor. I hope this is only temporary or else fuhh we r going to live in very "clean" house. Hahah. 

And one thing I notice lately is that it has been very. Yes. VERY difficult to put her to sleep. that included the napping sessions during daytime. She would cry her heart out before finally dozing off. I would carry n try to rock her all I can and yes it works sometimes but there r times where I feel like screaming n crying together with her. Simply because I just don't have the idea of what she wants/ doesn't want. huuu. it does test my patience but I'm trying my best to hold it coz I know she's just a baby and that's part of the skills that she has just acquired-- screaming n crying out loud that is. Hehe

Other than that, she's a good girl. Still loving her bath time, loves to smile n laugh, friendly n bubbly with strangers n never fails to put a smile on mommy daddy's face everyday. Alhamdulillah for that. 

of vaccinations

Nuha had her 6th month injection yesterday. 2 weeks later than the actual date; simply because daddy had to wait for his paycheck (confirm 1k for vac) and mommy still traumatized due to last experience with fever after vaccination; I'm emotional like that. And did this time around, was hoping for things to be better or even better, no fever at all! But, Allah knows best. She is recovering from her fever but if course this time is better than the last time. Alhamdulillah. And mommy daddy are calmer this time. According to my nurse friend here, babies develop fever after vaccinations simply because their bodies are adapting with the "strangers" aka ubat yg being injected into their blood streams. So I guess it is not that bad. It shows that her body is giving signals concerning strangers coming inside. More like it, No?

On another note, Since baby is unwell, there is no going out or outing for us today to celebrate Father's Day. No worries celebration will follow suit later perhaps. Hehe. Happy Fathers Day to my husband, daddy of Nuha, my Abah and also to my father in law! We love you to bits! 

Officially on solids!

Last 28 May marked her 6th month birthday and yay! Hello to solids! Mommy was excited and nervous at the same time. Weeks before, I started buying the necessary stuff the bowl, the spoon, the bibs, the storage jars n the likes at Toys R Us Sahara Mall. I chose Tommee Tippee Explora due to their attractive colours haha. Yeah I'm lame like that. Hihi. Was contemplating to get Beaba/Avent baby food processor and I ended buying Philips Food Processor haha. Speaking if being realistic as I heard baby won't b on puréed food for such a long time. Her first taste of puréed food was banana followed by carrot and now it's the apple. Of all three, so far, I could tell that she enjoys the apple the most. I guess because of its sweet taste. Too soon to tell but let's keep fingers crossed that her journey of "food tasting" will be a glorious one without dramas of food allergies, n other unknown reactions. InsyaAllah.