we are one year and 3 months this month. it is undeniable that most people around us have started asking their favorite question to us as such "bile lagi nie?" "tak teringin ke?" "planning ke?" and the list goes. i would lie if i were to say that this thing never crosses our mind. yes, we did, and we do discuss about this matter sometimes. surrounded by people who are easily pregnant never makes the situation any better. the thot of having at least a baby always comes across my mind. but i do believe that God knows best. like my husband always tells me " Allah is kind and definitely he will not let us down because our aim is to increase the number of ummah; that is one of the reasons why marriage is encouraged among us"
I cried when I got my menses yesterday. It was an emotional night for me last night. Thank God my husband was around to comfort me. He kept telling me to be relax, to enjoy the moment of being together. He did not like me crying because of that coz I know he strongly believe that the "rezeki" is not being determined by us. It's all Allah's work. I became better after that. Later that night, we watched SATC 2 and there was also part in the movie whereby the two ladies made a revelation about their life being mothers; where sometimes they felt like taking a break from taking care of the kids and the fact that their kids are driving them crazy some times worsen the situation. so i thought, maybe Allah is giving me times to learn and get the exposure first because being mother is never an easy task. So InsyaAllah, whenever the time is right, I believe that I will be a mother to my kids. Amin :)
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